Transformers Prime: I am Allspark

Alpha Trion, even after opening up for a moment about his past and the past of his brothers, felt that the weight and burden on his spark was nowhere near being lifted. He felt a great deal of self-loathing and anger at how things had gone wrong.

Orion was at a loss for words at the sight of his teacher so vulnerable, and it was even more shocking when he remembered that Alpha Trion is a Prime. One of the thirteen most powerful Transformers in history.

"Mr. Alpha, why have you never revealed to me that you are a Prime?" Orion asked, a part of him feeling betrayed that his teacher and father figure had never revealed such a fact about his life.

Alpha Trion looked into Orion's eyes and couldn't help but remember how they had become teacher and student. It was a good memory, one that lived very well in his mind, something much more special than he would normally admit.

"You always treated me like a normal bot, living a simple life without the weight of responsibility of being a Prime is something very special to me. After the War of the Primes, I was finally able to appreciate my life a little more."

"Special?"

"Yes... I didn't want you to see me differently just because I'm a Prime or because of how I failed Cybertron in the past."

Orion felt the weight of Alpha Trion's words and couldn't help but sympathize. "You're afraid of failing again."

Alpha Trion closed his eyes and bowed his head in shame. "Yes."

"From what you told me, I sense that you did the best you could."

"My best wasn't good enough." Alpha Trion clenched his fists so tightly it felt like he was breaking his own joints.

"But that doesn't mean that everything you did was in vain! You created this place to try to preserve the culture of our planet." Orion tried to cheer his mentor up.

"As much as I've dedicated my life to telling the story of our planet, I've had to make some changes, manipulate the facts so that mistakes can never be repeated, and believe me, I hate doing that." Alpha Trion remembered the promise he had made to Prima Prime to hide the truth about the facts of the war, but that thought was undone because it was a decision he had made himself and followed compulsively to this day. "I have lied about many things, I have lied to my people! I am a coward who is afraid to even ask my Creator if I have done anything good in my life besides being a dead weight too weak to save my brothers!"

Orion took a step back at the tone of his teacher's voice, the anger at his self-loathing almost palpable. It was clear that Alpha Trion had never had the strength to resolve his internal conflicts beyond blaming himself and chewing on that idea as fact in his mind.

"I am nothing but a fraud! I don't deserve the title of Prime! I never deserved so much power and responsibility! I could have saved billions of bots, but I failed to save our people!" Alpha Trion placed his right hand over his face, pressing his fingers tightly together. "I was arrogant! I was a bad brother! I was unfair! I was a liar! And in the end, I have no one left! My powers could have stopped the war, stopped Megatronus from being corrupted, if I had bothered to train my powers, I could have prevented Cybertron from being in its current state."

Alpha Trion stared at his student, trying to catch his breath, expecting to be reprimanded or punished for seeing only the worst of his actions.

"You still have me." Orion said seriously, throwing Alpha Trion off balance with words that felt like a blow to the old Prime.

Alpha Trion's eyes widened in pure surprise, he had expected the opposite. He expected to be judged for the mistakes he had blamed himself for for millions of years, not this kind of reaction.

"You can say that you haven't done anything right in your life, you can argue that you're not perfect, but no one is perfect, not even me, but I can say that you've been a great father to me." Orion didn't hesitate in his words, which had an overwhelming effect on Alpha. "You're a little grumpy, but that trait was never an obstacle for you to teach me and take care of me."

"I don't deserve forgiveness."

"Don't judge your own life only by your mistakes, but judge yourself by what you can do right and learn from it. You always tell me that we should learn from our mistakes to become better."

Alpha Trion couldn't help but remember the vision of the future he'd had, knowing that a war was about to begin and that it would be impossible to avoid. "Orion... what should I do?" He knew very well that telling Orion the truth about the future would be useless, since his prophetic visions are unchangeable fates, so he didn't want to burden him with such a heavy burden.

"I don't know, but I'm sure you'll do the right thing."

"Are you saying this because I am a Prime?" Alpha asked, hiding his anxiety from his pupil, or rather his son, and now he knew who he really is, and he feared more than anything that this bond they had would be broken or changed.

"I'm saying it because you're Alpha, a grumpy old man who takes care of his library and always uses the same excuse of being an old man to avoid cleaning the dust."

Alpha Trion couldn't find the words to express his gratitude, hearing these words from Orion, not being treated as a Prime but as a normal bot, was very rewarding for him.

"Thank you, but tell me, Orion Pax, what should an old man like me do in my position? What should I do to feel better?"

"I'm no expert when it comes to a legacy like yours, but why don't you ask the Allspark itself what to do?" Orion suggested, remembering his little secret adventure with Elita to invade the temple of Cybertron's most powerful artifact. Something he should reveal, as this detail would be fundamental to the rest of the conversation.

"Wait, wait, wait... what did you say?" Alpha Trion was taken aback by how casually Orion expressed himself. "Aren't you telling me to just walk into the Allspark Temple like it's nothing? There are very few bots that know my identity, which means no Temple Guardian would allow me to see the Allspark, and I'm too old to go back into action."

"I didn't say you had to see the Allspark through the front door." Orion couldn't help but find it a bit comical to see his teacher's reaction of surprise and confusion, as if one of his gears had simply stopped.

"Orion... what did you do?"

"It's a bit of a long story."